I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a lengthy while, I do not feel alone.

Element of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be doing this for the wrong reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to talk about was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have let you see inside acim teacher. Don't are interested troubling your mind, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I could not consider something that I had said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents'reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief has been (has been?) released.

There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.